21 April 2009
By Amber
In Life
he he he, when I go home from work today Ryan is going to be there!!! What an amazing feeling, its really not fair. When I visit him (almost every other weekend) he has to work a shift on Sat and a short one on Sunday. He gets this feeling all the time. What an amazing feeling I can’t wait till July and this gets to be my everyday feeling!
So here are a few other reasons I’m excited.
* The parents met this weekend (Ryans and mine) and it went great!
* We saw the house again I’m even more in Love now that alot of their stuff is down. Plus my Dad was impressed
* My Aunt is getting married to a great guy this weekend, she so deserves it.
Well thats all for me today hope your weeks are starting out as good as mine!
Amber
15 April 2009
By Amber
In Uncategorized
15 April 2009
By Amber
In Life
….I’m a big girl now.
You would think being nearly 26 years old and going through everything I’ve been through I would have thought that a long time ago. The truth is I have, many times over but in different areas of my life. Bills, work, navigating the health system. But I’ve really struggled with one, but I’m not sure I’ve even known it was a struggle till recently. My attitude is directly affected by those around me. I don’t’ mean other peoples attitude affect my own (that is natural) I’m just simply talking about peoples presence. People that make me nervous or I feel threatened by make me crabby and defensive. People I want to impress make me nervous and on edge. I’ve been living my whole life with these emotions surrounding me for no good reason. I need to stop letting other people mere presence affect me. So now that I’ve realized it, what do I do???
Amber
14 April 2009
By Amber
In Life
I’m addicted again, I don’t want to be I’m not proud of it but I am. I’m not 100% sure how it happend, it was a combanation of no will power and yummy treats at work, on the road, and Easter. My face is breaking out, I’m tired and I’m getting migrains again, I need to change.
So now what? First a few ground rules:
1) No candy while driving
2) No sugar over 8g per serving unless it is natural (ie fruit, and the exception of yougert)
3) Limit deserts to 1 or 2 per week
4) When craving sugar drink water
This should be a good start, hopefuly I’ll be back on track in no time.
10 April 2009
By Amber
In Accountability, Challenge, Faith
I had something very exciting happen this weekend. I was challenged, and not just by anybody but by my future husband. I’ve been praying for a man that would challenge and help cultivate my faith, and boy do I have one!
I called Ryan Easter morning (he had to work early) and not too far into the conversation he asked me why today was any different than any other day as a Christian. This perplexed me at first, what could he mean by that it was EASTER after all “He is Risen!” I stumbled over my answer in till I understood his meaning. Later after I had time to wake up and process what he was asking me I e-mailed back a response here it is:
“Your right today in the big picture of life isn’t any different than yesterday. However even I a “good Christian” (in saying that statement I have judged people as worse than I and put myself up on a pedestal.) Don’t remember His death and resurrection the way I should. I go through most days without praying, without being in his word, without acknowledging him at all…. When people ask me to defend my faith I often can’t give them a Biblical reference for what I believe I just know “its in there somewhere.” (huh, maybe not such a ‘good Christian’ after all.) These are things I’m working on, and have been for a while (I’m honestly hoping that you will help with this.) So isn’t it a good idea to take one day aside every year to remember the basis of our faith? To hopefully spur us on to remember this day continually so that it isn’t a big deal next time? Heck isn’t that the point of communion that we have lost when it becomes a ritual? So many parts of our faith have become a ritual we have lost the meaning behind it all. “
This just breaks my heart. I’m never going to stop celebrating Easter, that was not the point of the question. The point is that why MUST we have a big celebration to remember this? This is the foundation of our faith, Christ dying for our sins. How could we ever forget that??? But we do, often, I know I do.
I want yesterday to be a new start for me. From now on I don’t want to go through one single day without acknowledging God and what he has done for me. This could be prayer, worship, study, or remembrance. I not only want others to see a difference in me I want to see a difference.
So please check in on me, ask me how I’m doing and if you want let me know and I will do the same for you. Also notice on the side I’ve added a prayer request list, please if you feel lead pray for those Items and feel free to comment to this post with prayer requests of your own.
